Holes

I have no news. I'm bummed. I feel so hopeless sometimes. My heart aches for a baby to love and my arms yearn for a child to hold. It's killing me. I am so tired of waiting. It's been a year now with no success and I find myself doubting that it can/will ever happen for us. I don't even know how I feel. It's like there's a hole in my soul...

Day by day

Since making the decision to not obsess over every little detail of this baby-making adventure, my stress level has gone down dramatically and I feel great about it. It is one less thing to worry about every day. 

So, I have logged into my fertility app a handful of times this cycle. I know it had projected my ovulation date to be last Saturday based of my prior cycles. We did do the baby dance that day, but it wasn't intentional like in past months. 

The only things I have noticed are that my boobs have been SUPER sensitive since around 5 or 6 DPO. I also have noticed that --even though I've lost about 13 lbs-- my belly looks more bloated and full than it did before. I don't know. It could just be that I am losing weight everywhere except my belly making my belly look bigger. 

Other than that... no news on the homefront. 

Until next time...